Once again am here to create my own space. Sometimes I dream, sometimes I remember and sometimes I forget. When I remember those dreams, I always try to interpret the hidden meaning behind them. No.....don't even think that I have read Sigmund Freud (Interpretation of Dreams), they are just dreams and I treat them my way.
Long back in Kolkata, the first day when I shifted to a new place (I lived almost for 2 years at this place), I had a dream. I saw a friend of mine as a ghost, I was aghast, and shivering with the sensation of it. That moment only I started wandering that, why did I saw this dream, it never came back though. I tried to derive the meaning out of it, that is this a warning ? or some kind of a message that the future will deliver. I thought over it many times, I laughed that its not possible, that person can't be a ghost. Eventually I forgot it completely.
Later stages, I had my share of turmoils in life and it was up to some extent due to association with the same person. I languished for the same, and I realized that the dream was entirely true. It was indeed a warning which I let pass. It was clearly indicated to me that this person will haunt you. I should have given due weightage to that dream of mine. Anyways over the time my close friends keep reminding that, am a nagger, who always keep feeding dirt to the past. Henceforth I will not shovel more that why I didn't followed my conscience.
I quit smoking. It's almost around 7 months. Yesternite in sleep, I saw myself smoking. This was the second time that I saw myself smoking in dream. In dream I even, cursed myself after smoking, that why I did it and once again am back to this stupid stuff. I was also craving to smoke in the dream. A few months back I was in Germany, there people used to smoke anywhere, everywhere. I was just scolding myself that, why didn't I waited for more time to quit.
Over the time, I don't feel like smoking any more. I don't even know that smoking falls into my hidden desires or not ? I am still rambled with the dream, what it was signifying ?
Was it signifying the burnt desires or the ashes over time ?
May be it was signifying the ones who let themselves burnt for the salvage of mine ?
Was it saying me to to go back in the clouds of smoke so that I can't see any faces ?
Was it showing me, the all rest, no more pieces,the destiny of mine ?